For the first time, I’m going to the dental clinic. All alone :E
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Edit : It’s 8:30pm now and I’m back from the neighborhood dental clinic. I haven’t been ranting about things like these so I need I am going to rant about it now.
My appointment was booked at 7pm tonight and so I reached the clinic at 650pm. It is really near my house and I just needed a 3 minutes drive to the place. I sat down there and did nothing. I waited. Then I BBM Gin. I needed someone to talk to. I was almost tearing because I’ve never been to a dental clinic alone. I was either with my mother or my boyfriend. Gin needed to go. I then BBM Emily who just got her teeth fixed too. Haha. Then we self-declared that today is the Dentist Day, at least between us.
She needed to go too. And oh, it was already 730pm. Another lady came in. She registered herself. She sat down beside me. I tweeted. Then, another man came in. No, I think he rushed in. He didn’t look like a patient. He rushed in the room. I think he is the dentist. He went in the room, and the nurse came out calling my unfamiliar full name. I went in and saw the man in his turquoise colour suit. That’s the dentist, and he is late! I’m supposed to see another dentist but apparently, he has some emergency matters so I had to see another.
He spoke fluent mandarin. He had some Taiwan slang too. He asked how old am I. He asked if I’m still studying. I think he was trying to calm me down because “DENTAL PHOBIA” was written on my dental record. He asked me for my objective today. I told him I need a check up, I think I need to do tooth filling. He checked and he agreed, but not on the same tooth I mentioned. He saw another slightly decayed tooth on the left side. Whereas the tooth I mentioned to him needed a treatment instead. I was thinking, “OH SHIT. I will be paying double of what I thought now”.
He asked the nurse to put on the shades on me and the earphone. I stopped and asked if I could play my own Ipod music. “Even better” he answered. I put on the earplugs and started to play the music. I played it loud. I couldn’t hear him anymore, but I knew he was talking to me.. Hahahaha. I secretly lower down the volume of my Ipod. He asked me about random stuff like usual dentist would.
Then I ignored slowly. I was super panic ok! I cant think. I had my whole body shivering in tense because I was really nervous and it was really cold in the room. I heard him commented about my lips. It was really dry. I think he applied some Vaseline on them. Then he continued with all those drilling and patching and filling and sucking up the saliva thingy. I hated all those noise. I played the songs louder. I heard Jay singing. Jolin, Show Luo, Abba and Lady Gaga. I picked the right playlist. I wanna thank them for accompanying me.
One down, one more to go. I cant remember what really happened. I closed my eyes and listened to Lady Gaga singing very loudly beside my ears. I cant feel anything but from time to time I can feel the dentist patting on my shoulder. I think he wanted me to relax. Was I that panic? I cant remember. Also, I could hear him talking a bit between songs. And I can’t remember how long later, he patted on me again. It was harder this time. He off the lights above me. He said it is done. He asked me to gaggle my mouth. He asked me to bite a bit to see if the fillings are alright. I was stoned. So quick? Everything is done so quick? I guess I’m okay with tooth filling. Then I asked him if I needed to clean the teeth because I really hate that a lot. It hurts my gums to the max. I remember crying every time I did that.
He said, “It is okay. Your gums and teeth are quite sensitive. You only need to clean them once a year! Come back another time”. I felt so relieved. I smiled in an auto-pilot mode. Phew. I escaped my nightmare.
Then he continued, “Why is your record written…. Why… Why did the last dentist wrote that you have dental phobia? What have you done?”
“I think I’m really horrified to do of tooth plucking and cleaning”
“Have you thought of putting braces on? You will look much better…”
“I think no dentist missed saying that to me. Er… I dont know”
“So you dont like to smile?”
“I do!” and I smiled…
“Okay, I dont think you need to do braces la. Quite cute like that. I had a friend who loves tooth like that..”
“Huh, I can give mine to her if it doesn’t hurt”
“Hahahaha. Okay, I’ll see you another time. Drive safe”
“Thank you doctor”
I opened the door and left. I headed to the cashier. “RM1XX please….” And almost immediately, I handed her my debit card. She said “2% of surcharge, ok?” I nodded my head because I know I do not have enough cash for two tooth fixing. I prepared for only one. Then later she turned back and said, “Sorry, debit card doesnt work” Oh shit. How now brown cow…….
And so, I walked 3 minutes in the dark and quite alley. I walked to the bank. I was really scared then. Worried that I might me robbed. I might be bag-snatched. I might be knocked by motorcycles beside. Sigh. I think I have the mean world syndrome already. Once I reached the bank, I took some money out of the ATM, and ran back to the clinic. Sigh. Paid the cashier and headed back home. So, here am I typing this out.
Have you realize the point of this lengthy post yet? The main point is………….. I DID NOT CRY! FOR THE FIRST TIME! :D Someone over there reading this will be proud of me! :D :D